Everything falls apart eventually.

No matter how worn, or how new it begins its life.

Friendships, appliances, living things, the list goes on.

My world

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Free media? Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Free.

What is free? Technically, its meaning is "without charge".

Free media? One would associate these words with freedom of speech, where governments are criticised, where political think tanks are brought down to their knees by the chains of the press, where great minds speak their thoughts, where

"thoughts meander like endless wind"

If the media is free, why should information not be free? Why do we need to pay for any of it? So that state bureaucrats can earn extra pocket money for their lunch money? Why should magazines not be free? Why are they placed in plastic wrappers, surrounded by sticky tape that seals all holes from it, creating a vacuum within? Why should these materials be sealed up as though they were the crowned jewels of the tower of London, the famed Faberge eggs of Russia?

Nostalgia. Friday, June 18, 2010

Funny how one such word can conjure up so many emotions.
Be it memories which make us smile, cry, or even burst into anger, all of them fundamentally originate from that one word.

Funny how 1-2 years can seem as an eternity.

How so many things can be stored in that particular period of time.

Funny how people choose to lock down their memories.

As if they are afraid of the buzzing media chasing down their necks.

And any mention of it gives birth to endless streams of sweat down their neck.

Funny, how we came, saw and conquered our differences.

Funny were the challenges which we overcame.

Fun was the time we spent together.

Funny how you just tossed me out of your brain.

How your senses tell you not to do anything. How your perceptions tell you to do what you think is right.

Funny, how you became an outright bastard because of one little incident.

Funny, how i still choose to remember you by writing about you.

Shouldn't I just toss you out like trash?

Funny.

Who gets the last laugh?

So what? Sunday, June 06, 2010

So what if i hate loud noises,

crowded places,

people who walk slowly,

rowdy children,

parents unable to control their children,

lousy management,

and arrogant, hubristic people?

Does that mean anything to you? Do you even care?

My answer is most definitely 100% that you don't, and in retrospect, i don't really care as well.

Crossing Fingers Friday, May 28, 2010

Here's hoping the new theme is better. Though it's less clean.

Monstrous, monstrous. Friday, May 28, 2010

I'm not going to blame anyone or what, but I've decided to remove my tagboard.

New eye candy Saturday, May 15, 2010

When boredom sets in. Sunday, May 09, 2010

MUSE Friday, April 30, 2010

Damn i want this shirt!

Twinkle. Thursday, April 29, 2010

I look up in the night sky and I see a star,

A distant galaxy, lightyears away.

Tiny as it is, its glow reaches out to galactic proportions.

Akin to a glimmer of hope.

A single flame in absolute darkness.

A single light in the dark sky.

So tiny and all so distant.

Test. Friday, April 23, 2010

Test post.

"He is the hero Gotham deserves, but not the one they need" Friday, April 23, 2010

Eye Candy Much. Monday, April 19, 2010

Yoda! Saturday, April 17, 2010

Wishlist - Check

Just what happened? Friday, April 16, 2010

This isn't supposed to happen.

I did not work like a fucking prisoner of war last year to end up with this.

I did not work to die; I was working to see another day.

I did not put with all the sloppy shit last year to end up with this.

I put up with all those crap to make everything presentable.

"In the end, the love you take is equal to the love you make"

Whatever happened to the love i made?

Where is it now?

One does not put with so much shit with so much effort and get none of the extra effort back.

Whatever happened to karma?

Whatever happened to equality?

And what I can only do now is to harp on the past: Was it the topic? Was it me? Was it them?

I've been bombarded by "Cheer up" texts, tweets and what not. Get this straight: I'm not depressed. I'm not going suicidal, like my medicine may help to promote. Its just that, i don't comprehend the situation: How could this have happened? Whatever went wrong? Whatever happened?

Now i sit, in a corner, lonely and dark. Thinking. Thinking. Thinking...:

'Just what happened?'

What better way to de-stress than through ironic means? Monday, April 12, 2010

Good. Damn good. Thursday, April 08, 2010

I hate this.

Good.

I hate this.

What a beauty. Tuesday, April 06, 2010

What a beauty.

Damn. Tuesday, April 06, 2010

I really really really want the UEs in their shiny plastic boxes with matte finishes and with a hint of orange.

It's not like i can't buy them, its just that i don't have the opportunity to do so. The more i use my bose-s, the more dissatisfied i am with them. Getting waked up by meddling buffoons talking at the top of their voices, not being able to concentrate by another group of idiots whose voices can almost shoot (literally) through a roof. It can put out a fire dammit.

We all have our needs and urges. And this is like one of mine.

Twits galore Saturday, April 03, 2010

Meh. Haven't been updating blog of late, cos it's like i don't feel the need to do so, arising from the fact that my main readership audience has somewhat ported to twitter as well. So there isn't really much sense in updating my blog everyday just for one or two people to read.

So, read the twitter widget, and i will only post if it requires a great length, and of course, pictures.

29 is the number Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Unexpectedly, my GP paper 1 is seriously and surprisingly much better than what i expected. After the exam, i hoped for a 17. And now i've got a 29.

Its a C.

Like wtf? Who marked it?

It's like being back in the past, watching all those incredible people on 'Ripley's believe it or not'. This is probably one of those moments, of intense shock and disbelief - kinda similar to that experienced last year during promos (paper 2).

Though i would say this is probably the only 'surprise' that would be left.

Ostrich eggs... Saturday, March 27, 2010

Mindef Friday, March 26, 2010

Methinks that the checkup was a waste of time, especially the vocational assessment part, which was an interminable pile of nonsense getting thrown and thrown and thrown at you.

Yes, it was THAT long. Lucky its over. 3 hours of a perfect holiday, ruined.

In the end, methinks i'm PES E.

Yea.

Horrible. Horrible. Horrible. Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Yes. Its FREAKING repetition.

Exams exams exams.

I need motivation to study. It seems as though i've 'lost it' literally and figuratively after THAT incident.

Yea. This' kinda me now.

Checking Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Posting will continue tomorrow but when im not free for posting, check the twitter widget in the sidebar.

'Downtime' Monday, March 22, 2010

Will be back after wednesday.

The controversial fire within Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Dig deeper. Find something different. Find something different from who and what you think yourself to be.

(Picture title: Digging for Bones)

Personally, i think that everyone has something like an evil twin; a different and completely twisted persona from who they are from the surface. Subconsciously, everyone is injecting a wee bit of that personality into one of the most common actions of man - social interaction. Within basic conversations they hide, seamlessly juxtaposed.

People do not fail to notice this. I suspect some do, and intentionally perform for their audience to see. After all, "the whole world's [their] stage". Great actors. My suspicion lies in those who mainly see the world in only two colours - black and white, just as Rorschach did. There is no in-between, no grey, no middle line. Either you're with me or you're my enemy.

I believe I've said enough. This post ends now.

One man's meal is another's poison Monday, March 15, 2010

Just something to ponder on.

Just to find out. Friday, March 12, 2010

When watching movies, do you

a) go with the flow of the movie - just plain watching it

OR

b) you watch the movie and think about it - what something meant e.t.c

Shutter Island Thursday, March 11, 2010

Is anyone up for this? I think the release date is on 15th April thereabouts.

Flick a switch. Tuesday, March 09, 2010

And what do you see?

What change do you feel?

Do you sense - a change in mood? A change in attitude? A change in action?

Flick.

Do you experience change?

Flick.

What about now?

Do you not feel nothing?

Flick.

Do you not feel anything?

Or do you pretend not to?

who.amung.us? Saturday, March 06, 2010

If you noticed, there is a reddish tab at the top right of the blog - this shows how many people are reading my blog at the same time that you are, so if you see >1 you can probably say hi on the tagboard.

If it shows 1 though, its most probably just you thats reading the blog, though im certain it will show at least 2, well at least when i'm online anyway.

THE Alice? Friday, March 05, 2010

Just watched the newly released 'Alice in Wonderland', directed by Tim Burton almost moments ago. I'm still thinking of a word that can correctly describe what my memory just ate.

Though i won't say that its an excellent movie (like Dark Knight excellent), its definitely interesting. For me, the storyline was quite confusing at times, usually with the appearance of the mad hatter, and his unknown language at times. Though there were some humourous, moments at times, i would think that this is just the appearance of the movie, which was meant to convey perhaps a darker, more sinister meaning.

Its definitely not one of those movies where you watch and say "Eureka!", some parts were indeed confusing, and the story felt short; like more could be done to beef it up.

Nevertheless, it is an interesting movie. The good or bad depends on different people's perspectives.

"This fire is out of control... Thursday, March 04, 2010

... we're gonna burn this city, burn this city!"

Hazy, smoky air. What's up with this shit?

Its decreasing visibility, its suffocating people both by breathing and not breathing. I mean what the hell?

What's wrong with this screwed up weather? Rain has indeed been falling, but come on, a baby's tears can match up to the volume of water that falls.

Is it the extremely hot weather that has caused forest fires? Or is it the negligent burning of forests by people ironically trying to make a living while potentially killing people at the same time? Or has there been an international smokers day which i have not heard of; a secret cult of smokers that smoke a whole truckload of cigarettes individually?

Its relatively confusing. Monday, March 01, 2010

When theres someone around that you generally dislike, you wish for that day to end quickly; swiftly.

And when that same person isn't there, you begin to see what they truly bring to the table, despite you disliking him/her, either only relatively or with a passion.

Δ Thursday, February 25, 2010

Had a freaking fire drill in school, and tbh, it sucks bad. The usual waiting which is associated with fire drills and stuff, the interminable wait, the scorching sun, and the damp 'synthetic soil' combine to give a formula for disaster. So basically we set in the hot sun for almost 40-50 mins, and then they declared that everyone will be having recess right after the fire drill since it practically stole so many people's recess.

Then i went for a medical checkup, and the doctor decided to change my medication. The worst thing was that the medicine was to be taken in doses like half a tablet, a tablet and finally a tablet and a half. And cutting tablets are NEVER a good idea. Why can't they just produce it in the required dosages? Life's already difficult enough to remember to take medicine, and now i have to take it while being reminded of fractions?

CNY I think Wednesday, February 17, 2010

CNY I think, as a whole, was kinda disappointing.

Not because of the 'earnings' from red packets, but because of what felt to be an extremely short holidays which didn't felt like a holiday at all.

Where were the days of waking up late; of sleeping till we wake up ourselves?

Where were the reunions, the card games, the laughter, the games, the conversations? Everything seems missing. Everything feels different from before. It's not the traditional/stereotypical CNY which i expected.

Ending off on a lighter note though, at least something came through for me.

Stay tuned. Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Will blog later.

I promise.

CNY Celebrations Friday, February 12, 2010

First, it started with an hours of mindless dragon/lion dancing, with people pointlessly throwing sweets around.

Then there was the 30min break where everybody stoned at the canteen.

Then the real 'fun' began. Well until the disturbing part where the new teachers tried to be some chipmunk rubbish, who had mutilated hands and feet which were moving by themselves. Top that off with an almost freakish smile, it's like hell on earth.

Followed swiftly by an emcee that just could not make it. Nice try at trying to get the audience into the performance, i was so enthusiastic towards the end!

Not.

Then the even more retarded angel-mortal revelation, which would have given the cleaners a hell of a time to clean up the hall afterwards. So much for planning.

Chocolate Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Extreme heat.

Extreme brightness; glaring down, slowly melting and consuming every single molecule in my body.

I am literally dripping to death.

I drip onto an unknown, reddish-pink ... thing.

A sound of delight. A sound of pleasure.

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Yes, Tennis was FREAKING hot today. Though I've never tried it before, i think it would be almost placing your head in the microwave oven.

TV dinner.

I've got sunburnt. Cooked skin. The whole package.

I feel sleepy, and for some reason i can't stop sweating or sth. Maybe my insides are melting this very instant.

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Last story of the day.

After tennis, i was rushing to get home just so i can eat my medicine. I went out of school at 5:35.

Reached bus stop outside Pasir Ris MRT at 5:45.

Reached Tampines at 5:55.

Reached bus-stop outside Tampines mall at 6:00.

No buses came at 6:05. Shit, medicine is at 6:15.

Took taxi at 6:06. Reached home at 6:13 - just enough time for food and medicine, and an orchestrated sigh of relief.

Exhaustion. Tuesday, February 09, 2010

Had a tiny afternoon nap, only to wake up realising that i should have taken my medicine 10 mins ago. Guess i was woken up by the TV, which was showing some bloody loud documentary on Nat. Geo.

For some reason, my ears have been aptly tuned to sounds recently. They love great tunes, while they despise loud and unnecessary noises. It's like the music adds to relaxation while the noises, irritating and annoying as they can possibly be, add more stress to the workload that i'm currently struggling so much with. Really can't wait for CNY - not because of the money, the relatives, but i'm relying on them to propel me back to the productivity which i had possessed while in J1.

Though i do agree that the workload in J2 is heavier, i must agree that to a certain extent, it is still considered manageable despite the lessened time to do them cause of training and what nots.

I really need to catch up. I WANT to catch up. Though i got to admit, the exhaustion and tired days are seriously being a bitch.

Blisters Smisters Monday, February 08, 2010

The blisters on my right and left toe are getting creepy.

They are freaking yellow in colour (Yes YZ, Yellow Matter Custard) and like almost 3/4 the size of a 50 cent coin.

Plasters ain't helping.

Either my socks are too thin, or my shoes are wearing out; well at least they look worn out.

Time to increase my MPS/APS Saturday, February 06, 2010

Both earphones cost like not very cheap, so i guess i should start saving!

And by then, new stuff should be coming out, hopefully better and which are even better value for money.

Say NO Friday, February 05, 2010

to

NONSENSE

NOISe

Thoughts on J1s Friday, February 05, 2010

Orientation. Checked.

CCA-day. Checked.

I've seen them past. Seem them around. Their boorish antics. Mafia-like members. Mud chocolate. For the part, most of them look set to be 'R's.

Trilemma Wednesday, February 03, 2010

I've been contemplating whether to change my earphones for quite some time. Then, seeing an advertisement on Digital Life isn't really helping me to answer my question:

"Should I?"

As of today, I'm thinking of 3 options.

1. Obviously, don't change; stick to my Bose in-ear headphones.

2. Change to Ultimate Ears 700, which has an offer from now till 28th February, whereby purchase can also lead to a 'free' gift of a speaker.

3. Switch to Jays q Jays, another pair which has been marked as a competitor for the UE 700s. I came across this pair while reading reviews for the UE 700s. It seems to be a better alternative, for now - apparently, it costs less, and has more accessories such as a filter, more ear buds e.t.c.

Trilemma much. As of now, I have absolutely no idea about the price of the Jays earphones. I guess i will only make a decision until then.

Tutorials are like... Tuesday, February 02, 2010

Please watch. Saturday, January 30, 2010

How cute is this? Saturday, January 30, 2010

Close encounter(s) Friday, January 29, 2010

Was walking out of school went this 40-50+ couple walked towards me and asked how to take bus to Tampines Mall.

I said i didn't know how to take bus there since i don't take bus to TM from school. Thus i recommended them to follow me whilst i take the MRT to Tampines - same stop anyway.

Then they gave me a look. A look which is almost equivalent to when one rolls his/her eyes in disgust in a particular situation. Nevertheless, they followed me, while i was outpacing them.

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Why ask for help when you aren't willing to accept help?

Tomorrow. Wednesday, January 27, 2010

I shall be free.

And so shall my cursor be.

Sleepless nights. Tuesday, January 26, 2010

I stared hard.

The ceiling's dark. Where are the stars,

Supposedly to be sparkling in the sky?

Where are the pleasant sounds, coloured gold?

Sandman, sandman, where have you gone?

Why gone, you have, to steal light from others before mine?

I hate to stare.

Like the owl; silent predator of night,

Into the the darkness extreme might.

I despise staring.

Dream come true~ Saturday, January 23, 2010

Sengoku Basara Date Masamune Limited Edition Version

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Somewhere, somewhere in the big (small) place we call home, someone has opened a pandora box of epic proportions.

Plague is spreading.

The people who were hit hardest, the select few, run. Sprint. Fly. For cover. And yet, it spreads like wildfire, targeting them exclusively.

Famine strikes.

Then comes Disease.

And ultimately, Death.

FML. Friday, January 22, 2010

^ Title.

HELP! Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Yea. I really need help.

Introducing: The Beatles! Sunday, January 17, 2010

Methinks it's just too cool to have a collectible like this.

And by coincidence i do.

Open House. Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Tiring, tiring day.

My legs are falling apart,

I'm burnt to the max,

And blisters layer the bottom of my feet.

And yet, open house was good.

Enjoyable.

Fantastic.

And yet, there isn't a break tomorrow.

Confused. Monday, January 11, 2010

For some weird reason or another, many people are different this year. Both in actions and probably their thinking as well.

It could be their resolutions.

Their change in mindsets.

Or even influence from others.

Whatever the reason be, it will take some time to get used to.

There's something strange in the air, and i don't like it.

The trend of cell/handphones. Thursday, January 07, 2010

From Ericsson to Nokia,

from Nokia to Sony Ericsson.

And from SE to Apple.

What's next?

Lol. Wednesday, January 06, 2010

I kinda realised that more people are actually counting down to either the start of school on 11th Jan/Release of O level results than actually during New Year's Eve.

Do; not overdo. Monday, January 04, 2010

Spending a sunday/monday night/morning at a 'posh' restaurant for a wedding dinner consisting of 9 dishes (including dessert) is definitely not my cup of tea.

The amount of food is just incomprehensible. How full it can make you is another topic entirely. Why try to prove something when people already know of your status?

Add to that, an interminable loop of 'Quando Quando Quando' doesn't really help, except for when you want to enter an asylum and become 'Quandoman' or something.

An emcee that just can't make it, who's just trying to hard to have a foreign accent and what you get is a recipe for disaster. Whatever happened to patriotism and love for the country?

No doubt the food may be good at times, but so?

Ridiculous.

Happy New Friday, January 01, 2010

2010!